This is me. This is my life. My story of motivation, inspiration, and my personal weightloss journey. My quest to originally help myself but have also been touched & genuinely surprised to realize I’ve been making an impact on the lives of others as well. It was not my intent, this was supposed to be all about me, myself, and I. I was doing it for ME! I’ve been blessed with the chance to open my eyes and realize that life is sweeter and the journey more worthwhile when shared with others like yourself who are on the same path as you, who have walked in your shoes, who understand, who get it, who care. This applies to anything in life, not just losing weight or exercising. A whole new world has been laid out in front of me and I have been taking full advantage of what has come my way.
I’ll start out by saying that since January of this year I feel like I have become a different person, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. It’s been gradual and I’ve been fortunate enough to have had amazing help and some pretty awesome cheerleaders to help along the way (you know who you are). I know I was and am still me but have changed and am continually striving to be a better me. It’s a process and I have a long way to go, like the rest of my life kind of long way to go. I am not and will not ever be perfect. That is not and will not ever be my goal and even if it was it it unobtainable. Perfect would be boring. All I can do is live life as it comes, continue to be myself, and keep on trying to better my life in all areas.
In January of this year I was a
bigger girl, ok well, just plain fat, no nice way of saying it. I was pretty overweight for someone of my stature. I had gotten up to about 170 pounds, maybe a little more. I am a whopping 5 foot tall, that much extra weight just doesn’t carry well on a small frame like mine. I knew I was overweight but was lazy, undetermined, in denial, just didn’t care about myself as I should. I kept telling myself for years I wasn’t as big as I really was. I think I just didn’t see it, figured I wouldn’t be able to lose it, didn’t want to try b/c it would be too hard, and just didn’t feel like it. I felt it and knew I wasn’t where I should be but continued my ride on the I Don’t Care Express . I would constantly make countless excuse after excuse. I had no mindset to change and wonder where I’d be today if I hadn’t found my outlet, what works for me, what makes me happy, motivates me. How much bigger might I have gotten by now? My much needed and very welcomed kick in the butt motivation came in January when my friend and neighbor invited us to the beach for vacaction this summer. I was bound & determined that I was not going to look like a beached whale on the beach, just wasn’t going to happen. I wasn’t looking forward to exercising, I wasn’t looking forward to dieting, and I wasn’t looking forward to the impending disappointment of the weight not going anywhere. Even still, I knew in the back of my mind that I HAD to change, COULD NOT live like that anymore, and so my journey began!
This is me almost exactly a year ago today, the OLD me. Not pretty, not happy, not healthy, not the same. Wow, was this REALLY me?
Thursday January 26, 2012 was the day that changed it all and I was introduced to something I really and truly love and enjoy, can’t seem to get enough of and I think is one of the best things that has ever been put into my life for many reasons. If you know me you know this to be true! The rest has just naturally fallen into place. I made a choice, made up my mind, decided I wanted to really live, and I haven’t looked back since. Motivation is definitely the key but the choice must ultimately be up to yourself. I think everyone just needs their own personal kind of motivation. It could be anything from an upcoming wedding, a planned trip, wanting to become pregnant, an illness or health issue that exercise could help with, a job, etc. Once I got motivated it became all about positive self image and attitude, self confidence, self worth, and pure, hardcore determination. I was ready to show myself and the world just what I was made of. I surprisingly found out quickly that I could do it and was doing it and there’s no stopping me now! This was just the beginning!
“Losing weight is a mind game. Change your mind, change your body.”